Finally made the decision to play people for suckers on the shorting order of ETH, lost 800,000 dollars, and this year's profits are basically all gone.

The first half of the year was still too comfortable, traveling while making money made me feel elated, and being out of the loop made it hard to see the situation clearly; in a bull market, I'm shorting orders.

I always advise others not to play contracts, but I keep playing myself, thinking my self-control would be fine, yet I still can't avoid getting carried away, just gambling out of disbelief. This time I lost big and should wake up. The casino doesn't fear you winning; it fears you not playing. You can win many times, but you get carried away the first time you win at the casino.

This bull market has nothing to do with me. I'm holding a shorting position, exhausting my energy staring at the secondary market, frequently missing out on the big dogs on-chain, getting more anxious with every mistake, and making more mistakes because of the anxiety. Recently, I've bought big dogs but can't hold onto them, sold them early, and all I have left are the losing positions. As time goes by, my mindset has become even more unstable. I can only reconcile with myself, step back from the circle for a while, read some books, relax a bit, and adjust my mindset before re-entering the battle.

The next round of market trends is goodbye, remember not to touch contracts.